Yes the loud banging noise makes you feel happy, thats because your an idiot

There is something truly annoying about having to listen to second hand noise. Like over hearing a party when your trying to sleep or hearing people fuck in the room next door. The most annoying part is that you wish you where involved in these things. You wish you where doing the fucking or getting drunk and dancing around like a buffoon at a party. But your not, your in bed alone getting pissed off that you have to listen to these things. As your not involved you start telling yourself that these inconsiderate people are doing these things to wind you up. They are purposely doing these things to remind you of what you could be doing . But anyone who has ever had sex or even been to a party knows this is not true. You not doing anything to just be a dick your having fun when it comes to a real swinging party you probably wouldn't care if your neighbour turned up with some booze and started having a good time (unless you hate your neighbour), you might care a bit if he turned up to watch you having sex though.

I know that the people that live around me don't live there lives to annoy me, I know when a car drives past me blaring out shit dance music that's this is not happening because the driver has singled me out. I just feel that they have.

For a man who doesn't drive the very notion of some 17 year old chav fuck who's parent have brought him a new car just because they love him winds me right up. Who do they think they are? Treating him to gifts especially as we all know him to be a twat. For a man who hardly ever gets laid the idea of happily in love friends having sex on a regular basis really pisses me off, who do you think you are? Living your lives happily in the arms of someone you love, you make me sick.

In an ideal world everyone is as miserable as I am no party's are ever had. Sex is saved for once in a blue moon and chav fucks listen to classical music on the lowest volume setting and even then they are sorry for all the inconvenience.

I wish I was a sad clown hooker, at least that way I would have a job

I've been really good up until today, I never got suckered in, I always found away to avoid it. But today i have accidentally tuned into Jeremy Kyle and I haven't switched off straight away. I think its mostly down to northerners being on, when those guys get yabbering on in their weird northern accents I just get hypnotised its almost poetry except they all say "at the end of the day"alot. Any who I'm getting off topic, the reason I don't watch day time TV is that as soon as you do its almost like giving up searching for a job. There are some acceptions to this rule though for example you are allowed to watch channel 4 comedies such as Frasier and cheers.

So I've been unemployed for about 4 months now and for the most part i have kept myself sane and occupied. The issue is that when I look back over those 4 months I start thinking about all the things I could have achieved if I really tried. I enjoy writing which is why I do these stupid blogs but anyone that knows me knows I have a passion for films and comics which is why I have about a million ideas a day for films. Yet when it comes time to settling down and getting some work done I find another way to fill the time like playing computer games, watching bad movies or watching good porn. Having a boring life is such a distraction. A friend of mine once said if you need something done give the job to someone busy.

So how do i resolve all these issues? How do i change my life around and get it on the right tracks? Seriously I'm asking as I have no clue. But there is a good chance that if you are reading this you haven't figured that out yet either.

Choose Ninja as pirates are shit

Pirates are crap, they where cool for about a year then crappy sequels where made and I lost respect for Johnny Depp. I'm sure all faith will be rebuilt when i see Alice but until then........
Anyway what was my point, umm I guess that anything great can let you down or will let you down. Some people think that the second and third pirates of the Caribbean films are good or great. You are wrong, so very very wrong I cant go into to much detail but just remember how good the first one was and compare.

So was it Johnny Depps fault? I mean think about it he did read the script. He did agree to it. But he is only human and he wanted the money. Which probably hurts the most, I've seen Mr Depp in some great performances he usually doesn't disappoint.

Johnny Depp letting me down was bound to happen, if the Matrix films have taught us anything its that some thing are inevitable, this is fine. Besides he is an actor I don't actually know, I know of him, I just don't know him personally. This makes forgiving him easier. So what happens when someone I know personally lets me down this is inevitable. Sadly if you have lived your life without anyone you love or trust letting you down it probably means your about 6 months old. At some point you will feel let down maybe even betrayed.

These people wont do this for a massive amount of money, they will do this accidentally. They probably wont be thinking straight or they will be hurt themselves and feel like venting. They will mostly do this because they are human and we make mistakes all the time. It will be up to them to do something great to try and win back your trust but mostly it will be up to you to choose when to forgive them. But keep in mind you have probably let someone down at some point also as your only human and if you haven't you will.

Fuck it

I had written a massive blog venting all my anger but it didnt save and i lost it, this is all your getting.