Lets get back to basics

I kinda feel I have been writing this blog for other people and while doing that I've completely missed the point of writing a blog. This should be an expression of self. It should be a format for me to express my views and to try and journal certain parts of my life. Maybe in a billion years all that will be left of the human race will be my blog and I have to say jesus why in mid 2010 did we decide to give ants the vote? They changed everything and that's why all the humans are dead.

So here's whats been going on. I recently embarrassed myself with a conversation I had with a friend letting her know it wouldn't be bad kissing her and that I would probably enjoy it. Yeah it sounds harmless but that's because I'm choosing to leave out all the awkward Jon moments. i also recently tried to do the right thing with an issue between some work colleagues. This also blew up in my face and seems to have made me a bit of a cunt. On the plus side we finally have a shower in the Budworth house, after 20 odd years of leaving here we finally have one. This is of course incredibly ironic as I have a nagging feeling we are going to get kicked out of our home but more on that later.

So time for some good news. I have a new niece and like the old niece she is bundle of pure joy and unconditional love. Granted she looks all squishy faced but she is a couple of weeks old and I'm sure she will grow in to herself. For those that haven't seen any pictures she is small, pink and has a lot of black hair on her head. For me sadly describing a baby is like trying to describe an amazing abstract painting. Its beautiful and amazing but no words ever come out right so its probably best to see it for yourself.

So losing our home, most readers have never met my parents. My dad is registered disabled but before that happened he always worked hard either at work or in his studies. My mum has always worked hard but due to poor health has had to take lots of sick leave from most of her jobs. Like at the moment she is off work and its not looking like she will be going back. Now for those who read closely I stated that my parents have always worked hard. I never stated that they ever worked smart. Truth be told that if either of them choose a career at say Sainsburys or Tescos are family would probably be in a safe and secure place but that didn't happen. My family has never been rich even in the slightest we have always just about scraped by constantly borrowing money and trying to get through to the next month. But this time just feels more troublesome I might be blowing things out of proportion but we will see. I don't blame my parents for the way they choose to live there lives, I will say as a warning to all those out there that you should never have a family unless you can afford it and even then its better to spoil one child then it is to just get by with three.

So just to lighten things up I want to share a thought I recently had about the movie The Dark Knight. If you have never seem the film I'm sorry, I strongly suggest going out and watching it now. OK so you have seen the film and you have done your best at ignoring Christien Bales really terrible voice while he plays the Bat. Now near the end Joker has two boats hooked up to blow and the passengers have to choose which boat goes. The Bat insists that neither boat will blow as the people wont do it. This of course happens, nobody presses the button, yay people of Gotham. So Batman has apparently installed goodness and inspired all the people of this city. So why the fuck did he take the blame for the Harvey Dents killings? Lets be fair Batman inspired the people more then Harvey did, Batman was showing the people what good could be done and that any citizen can do a part to make the city a better place. Now he took the blame for the killings he has taken that view away. Maybe Joker knew something like this might happen and that's why he let Harvey out of the hospital. Who knows, what I like about that movie is two years after its release I keep coming back and thinking about all the messages within this film.